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Running on Empty

Life won't wait. My training along with much of my life right now has been a major struggle. I am going through something that is breaking my heart. It is not as easy to run on a broken heart as I would have imagined. I want to give up on so much but that is just not who I am. I will stick to my training schedule as much as I can. I will try to not beat myself for every mile I miss. At this point in my training I am not confident that I will see that finish line but I'm certain I will give it my very best.

I'm wondering how many other people that were training for their first 50 mile event had this much self doubt? My longest distance that I run at any one time of this schedule is 28 miles followed by a 10 mile run the next day. The more I talk to other people the more I am hearing that the mileage you can run in one weekend is the mileage you can run in one day. I need to trust this schedule. I am not giving it enough credit. Who am I to judge this schedule until race day has come and gone. While I was training for my last event which was a 50k. I had these doubts too. I think many runners have them but perhaps dont talk about them as much as I do. I talk about all of my feelings. Its how I get through them. Its what I was taught to do. 

My running schedule for the week:
Monday - Rest
Tuesday - 4 miles
Wednesday - 10 miles
Thursday - 6 miles
Friday - Rest
Saturday - 26 miles
Sunday - 10 miles


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